I'm beginning a series of evocations with the intent of acquainting myself more personally with the Archangels of the Spheres and to receive initiation into their respective Spheres. Recently, it came to my attention that I've had a bit of a misunderstanding about the nature and purpose of working with this set of Spirits, so you can all this my Corrective Action.
In keeping with tradition, I chose a Venus hour yesterday (Friday) to evoke Haniel and my purpose was two fold. 1) As stated, to seek initiation into Venus/Netzach. 2) To learn more about the nature of the Spirit and the sphere itself.
I began with my usual ritual openings. The ritual itself is taken from Frater R.O.'s Modern Angelic Grimoire (Honestly, one of the best little texts I possess.) -- and he feels that the Table of Practice is sufficient for the purposes that the LBRP serve. In practical terms, he's probably right -- Afterall, the crystal/bowl/cup/mirror is enclosed with the table of practice with the Holy names of God written about.
I choose to open my rituals with the LBRP, BRH, and Rose Cross ritual for its benefit to my mental state and "psychic awareness", in this case. It helps "get me there", rather than jumping right from ordinary, mundane life into a short ritual evocation of an extremely powerful spirit. (honestly, it's a few short prayers, a line drawn with a wand, and a short consecration of the incense and the speculum of choice, then the evocation itself.)
Upon calling forth the Spirit, I felt a change in the atmosphere. I note the difference in feel between when I am asking for and making use of the energies of Venus (internal) as opposed to calling upon this Spirit for counsel (external). The atmosphere was warm and comforting. The presence tends to dull down my brain (make me a little bit stupid), but it's much more a feeling of comfort and fascination. I stated my purpose to the spirit, "I've called you forth for two purposes... etc."
Communication, though, was not easy. I had to continue in fervent beckoning, vibrating of the name HANIEL, and alternating between focusing on the mirror and meditating, listening for communication and allowing visions to unfold in my mind.
I noticed movement and vague patterns of light (VAGUE) on the mirror surface, but nothing substantial. It took the better part of 45 minutes before I got a distinct message.
The words came into my mind distinctly, "I am the love of all things. Pleasure is Art, it sustaineth all life. Wilt thou receive me unto thyself?"
(Yes, of course)
"Then I shall fill thee up, as Water in a Cup"
Then silence. I closed my eyes and asked for a vision.
I saw, in my mind, a beautiful woman whose face never turned straight toward me, leading me down a corridor. The corridor was dark and the end of the hall was light. It ended at a brick wall -- there were doors to the right and to the left. I paused, she turned slightly, and motioned for me to follow her. So I did.
Upon entering the door, we were in total darkness. I had to follow and just trust where we were going. We came upon a garden with two pools in the middle. Both were rectangular and divided by an aisle, and the waters were glowing intensely. I noticed that there was a man floating above the left pond, whose form was vague, but he was tattered and dirtied up. I asked her, "Why have you taken me here?"
She said to me, "To be cleansed. That you see is your heart: Tattered, soiled, and it must be washed before you are ready to receive the gifts I am able to offer."
The man was plunged into the waters, and I was conscious of being in the water rather than watching. I came back up, and then was conscious of seeing my form made anew and clean. (from the outside)
She instructed me to receive it back into myself, and I opened my mouth and it flew back in.
Communication ceased and I gave the license to depart.
I'm guessing that this was my Initiation. This leads to the question: Are the "gifts [she's] able to offer" Initiation, or things you receive *after* initiation? We'll see what happens in my world.
I will post about my experiences with the other Spirits as I evoke them.